Craig and Chris stood in front of the doors, as they waited for someone to come out. They needed answers, and they needed them now. The more time that went by, the more worried they got. They were convinced it couldn’t be a good sign.

“We’re losing her,” they heard someone yell from within the walls.

Chris felt like someone kicked him in the gut, and he just lost it, screaming, “Kelsie!!!!!” He darted right for the doors, almost ready to go through them, “I have to find out if she’s alright,” he cried.

Craig pulled him back; it took him almost all his strength to do so though, but some how he found a way to do it. Somewhere inside he found a calm voice, “Chris, you can’t go in there, you got to let the doctors do their job. You don’t even know if it is even her who they’re talking about.”

Trying to pull away from him, “I have to go in, she needs me,” he wept. He needed her to know that he was here, that he had come back.

Having a hard time finding the right words; he was feeling the same way even though he wasn’t ready to admit it, “I know, but going in there isn’t going to help, you’ll only be in their way at the moment.”

Just standing there doing nothing, Chris felt like the walls were closing in on him, beads of sweat covered his forehead, the room was spinning, and he was barely able to breathe. He needed air; he needed to escape from this world. Without saying a word, he just jetted towards the stairs, the closest exit.

Craig watched him and wondered what was up with him. He tried to call out to him, but Chris just kept on running. He decided to go back to the waiting room, when he got there, he walked up to Jimmy. He thought that Chris was more likely to listen to Jimmy then him, “Jim, something happened, and I tried talking to Chris, but he ended up taking off.”

He felt for Chris, knowing that he would be the same way if Ashley were here, in the same position. Getting up from his seat, “I’ll go look for him.”

“Thanks,” sitting down in his seat.

******

Chris could feel the breeze on his face and it felt good. He couldn’t get rid of the feeling that he was losing Kelsie all over again as he had last year. He still remembered the moment the car hit him, the last thing that went through his head was that he might never see her beautiful face, or even feel her touch again. His world fell apart the day, and now his world seemed to be shattering into pieces right before him again, making him feel like he was locked in a little box, unable to get out to help; he felt so helpless. He was her boyfriend and he was supposed to be able to keep her safe, to help her when she was in need. At this moment, he wasn’t doing his job; he was failing.

He sat down on the curb, with his arms around his legs, and sadness in his eyes as he watched the cars drive in and out of the parking lot.

Jimmy walked out of the doors to see him sitting down on the ground. He slowly came behind him. He was unsure about what he could say to him, knowing that nothing he said would really help. “You want to talk?” he asked as he sat down beside him.

“Yeah, I could use a friend since I have none here,” wishing that Brennan or Tyler were here so he could talk to them. They knew how much she meant to him, everything about their relationship; they would know how to help. However, he guessed that Jimmy would have to do for now.

Looking over at him, “So tell me what’s bothering you.”

“It’s just not fair. Nothing seems to go right in Kelsie’s life. Something’s always happening to screw things up. Like me coming back into her life, after she thought that I was dead or her losing our daughter. I mean, nothing ends up as it’s supposed to be.” He promised himself that he wouldn’t cry anymore, so he tried to hold back his tears.

“Something did happen right for her; she got the love of her life back,” knowing how ecstatic Kelsie was when she had phoned Ash with the news. He had been over at her house at the time and could hear her excitement over the phone.

“Yeah, but at what cost? I mean she wouldn’t be in this situation if I didn’t come back into her life,” he wailed, blaming himself for the whole ordeal.

“You don’t know what would have happened. That’s the thing about life it’s so unpredictable,” he tried to reassure him.

“I love her so much, and it tears me up inside to see her like this. I want to fix it, but I can’t,” he said with so much frustration. He was supposed to make everything better.

“You just need to be there to help her fight.” Standing up, “Why don’t we go inside and see if there are any updates on her and the baby?”

Taking a deep breath before getting up from the ground, “Alright.”

******

Dr. Abbott strolled into the waiting room, to find them all staring off into space. They all looked as if they could use a good sleep. When they all finally noticed that he had arrived, they gave him their full attention. They wanted to know how everything went.

He stood there for a few seconds before he said anything, “Kelsie had a baby girl...”

With joy at the thought of having a granddaughter, “That’s great…” Joey said.

Interrupting him, “but we had to put her in an incubator.”

The smile that had been on Joey’s face was now gone, as he listened to an update on her. His poor granddaughter was there having to fight for her life, after only being few minutes old.

“At the moment she is having hard time breathing on her own. We’re hoping within a few days that this will no longer be a problem, and if that’s the case then we will be able to release her from the hospital in about two weeks.”

They were filled with joy at the news about the baby, that is seem like she was going to be alright, that they almost forgot about Kelsie, and how she might be after this whole ordeal.

Then he began to speak again. “Now Kelsie on the other hand, wasn’t as fortunate. She started hemorrhaging while we were doing the C-section. We were able to stop the bleeding, but not without leaving some damage.”

“What kind of damage?” Karen asked she looked at the doctor with so much fear in her eyes. She had heard what hemorrhaging could do to someone, and she couldn’t bare that happen to her only child, a child that she was just starting to get to know all over again, after missing a lot of her teen years.

“Right now she is still in a coma, holding on for right now, but she lost more blood then we would have hoped, so anything could happen.”

“You mean she could die!” Nick roared.

Finding it hard to look at them directly, knowing how they would react, “Yeah, from the amount of blood she lost her fingers and toes have turned blue; we’re trying our best to get them back to normal.”

“Say she does live, is there any other type of damage? “ Karen asked.  

“Well I saw some in the inside of her uterus, from the look at it she’ll be lucky if she will be able to have anymore kids after this.”

At the sound of those words, Craig began to feel even more dreadful. He hated to see that she might never be able to have any more kids because of him. He knew how much having children meant to her, she wouldn’t take those words too well. And he thought that he couldn’t feel any worse about the situation.

“Is there any way of knowing?” Karen asked, knowing that her daughter wanted more kids eventually. If the news was that she couldn’t have kids, she worried how Kelsie would take it, especially if her daughter didn’t make it.

Shaking his head, “Not until she has healed.” He wanted to be kind, but he knew it was unlikely that the tests would come in their favor. This was probably the last child she would ever have. He hated to see this happen to such a young person, a person who seemed from the look of her family and friends so desperate for children.

“Is there anyway we could go see her now?” in desperation.

“Let’s get her settled back into her room, and then you can go see her.”

Looking at the doctor, with apprehension in her eyes, “Thanks.”

“Am I able to go see my daughter?” Craig asked with so much hope. He needed to see her, to see that she was all right with his own eyes. This was his child; he was someone’s father, it seemed so surreal to him, yet it felt so natural to him.

Pointing at the nurse, “Go with the nurse, she’ll take you to her.”

Craig began to follow the nurse, leaving his friends, and family, when he heard his name being called. It was coming from afar, so he couldn’t quite figure out who it was. He turned around to see who it was, and he was very surprised to see who had shown up.

She ran up to him to him and gave him a big hug. He didn’t know what to think about this. He just began to hug her back. He held her, gripping her tightly in his arms, “Emma what are you doing here?” he asked, unable to figure out why she would be here after their break up. He thought she hated him after the words she had exchanged with him earlier.

Emma let go of him, and looked up so that she could look him in the eyes as she said it, “Snake told me about what happened to your daughter and Kelsie. I just knew I had to be here for you at such an atrocious time,” caressing his cheek with the back of her hand.

His head was telling him to let her in, but his heart was telling him that he needed to focus on his daughter at this moment; she was much more important than any relationship. Slowly pushing her hand away, “I can’t do this right now.” Walking away, “I have to go be with my daughter.”

“Why are you trying to push me away?” she bellowed trying to get him to open up to her, to talk to her. It had never been this hard before to get something out of him.

He decelerate in his tracks as those words hit the back of his head, whirling around, “ME,” pointing to himself, “You’re the one who pushed me away, REMEMBER,” he hollered back so loud that the whole floor could probably hear them. He looked at her with irritation in his eyes at the thought that she was acting as if that whole day hadn’t happened, as if she hadn’t done anything wrong.

Going up to him, with tears falling from her eyes to the ground, “I’m sorry," she wailed. “I never meant to do that, I was just upset. I don’t want it to end between us. You’ve been the best thing to come into my life. You’ve helped me through a hard time in my life, and I want to pay you back by doing the same for you.”

Tears flowing down his cheeks, “So you’re just here because you want to pay me back?” It was as if he wanted to begin a fight with her, that he wanted to make it as hard on her as she had been on him.

Getting frustrated since he was being difficult, throwing her hands in the air, “No that’s not why I'm here, and YOU know it.”

Looking slightly at her face, but trying hard not to look into her eyes, the eyes that always seemed to draw him in, eyes that he couldn’t see enough of, “NO, I don’t know anything anymore,” he began to walk away. This isn’t what he needed right now, he was losing time with his daughter by staying here, time he didn’t know if he could waste.

She took hold of his arm, “I can’t lose you, not when I finally realized that…that I love you.”

Craig didn’t know what to say after that. He was in shock, and he began to ask himself if he loved her back. He was filled with so many emotions; he couldn’t seem to find an answer especially when he had so many things running through his head. “I have to go see my daughter,” he said softly as he walked away with his head down, watching the floor before of him, as one single tear fell from his eye.

He was confused; he remembered what he had told Paige earlier. Was he really still in love with Kelsie; was he love with both of them? What was he doing, he couldn’t think about that now, now he had to be there for his daughter to help her fight; he was her only parent that could do that right now.

Emma stood there watching him walk away from her, tears poured down her face, as it seemed like her whole future was slowly drifting away from her. What if he never came back; what would she do then? He was her rock to lean on; he was the only one who truly understood her, or what she was going through. Not even her own family knew her as he did.

She leaned up against the wall, arms crossed, banging her head against it. Thinking how stupid she had been today, for letting go of the only man she had truly loved. No one that she had been with could compare to him.

******

Chris sat there in the uncomfortable hospital chairs, slouched over with his hands covering his mouth, waiting to get in to Kelsie. He had let her parents go see her first, but he wished that he had gone first instead because the wait was killing him. Just by looking at him, you would assume he hadn’t slept in days, his eyes were blood shot, and his hair messed up as if it had been a windy day.

Ashley sat across the room and saw the distress in Chris eyes, and sympathized with him. She decided to go talk to him. Maybe she could get his mind off this all, if only for a few moments.

She walked up, and sat right beside him, putting her arm around him, “Hey, how you doing?”

Looking over at her, “I’m better; I just want to get into see Kelsie, to let her know that I’m here, to make sure that she knows that I came back.”

“I bet she knows you’re here, she knows that you love her.”

Not looking so convinced, “I don’t know…we had a pretty big fight.”

“Yeah Jimmy told me about that,” she gazed at him with empathy.

“Yeah well I haven’t seen her since really, what if she doesn’t know, and she decides to give up fighting, and…” just the thought brought more tears to his eyes. He couldn’t handle the thought of her dying, of losing her yet again.

“Chris, you know that she’s not like that. She always fights for what she wants. If not fight for herself, she’ll fight to be with that daughter of hers.”

“It’s funny how every time things are going well something goes to screw it up. Like she was going to have the baby, we got a house and she even sent in her book to get it published. It seemed like everything was back on track after everything that happened last year.”

“Chris things will work themselves out, I know Kelsie is going to be fine, all she needs is time.”

Thinking of how she was since he has known her, he smiled “She’s always been one to do things on her own time. You could never push her before she was ready, like with showing others her music. I tried forever to get her to do it, but she simply refused.”

“We didn’t even know she could play anything until her birthday party, when she sang a song that she wrote for you.”

Smiling as he thought of her voice, “She is amazing, isn’t she?”

“Yeah, she is,” she smiled.

******

Craig sat right in front of his daughter’s incubator, just gazing at her. A tear ran down his cheek as he thought how beautiful she was, and how much he loved her. “Hey sweetie, I’m your dad. Your mom’s not here right now, she’s not feeling that well right now. You have to hold on for her, she’s awaited your arrival for so long. You’ll love your mom when you see her; she’s the most loving person you’ll ever meet. Always thinking of others before herself. And I promise you that I will be the best dad in the world, and I will be here for you when you need me.”

Craig had his head leaned up against the incubator while he touched the side of her face. She looked so innocent, and he felt so helpless watching her like this. He just hoped that the doctors were right when they said she would be fine. Just seeing her in person made him realize how much he wanted to be a father to her.

“I love you my sweets,” he smiled as he gazed at her.

A nurse came over to Craig, “We need to check on her so if you wouldn’t mind could you wait outside?”

“Okay,” he said getting up from the chair that he hadn’t left in hours, to stand outside the doors, watching her from the outside window.

******

Chris sat at Kelsie’s bedside all through the night, not letting his eyelids slip one bit. He couldn’t let himself fall asleep; her parents had tried to get him to leave or at least get something to eat, but he refused to leave her. He told them he had to be awake when she finally awoke from her coma, so that she knew he came back to her.

She looked peaceful as she lay there, the most calm he had seen her had been since they had arrived in Toronto. Caressing the side of her cheek, “You’re my angel, sent from God. Hun you have to wake up, your daughter is waiting for you, waiting to meet you.”

Kelsie’s eyes began to flicker, as if they were going to open. Chris’s heart leaped at the sight of this. Was she really coming back to him, he thought. “Kels,” he called out.

Kelsie eyes soon opened, and glazed at him, at her surroundings, “Chris where am I?” not remembering about the accident that occurred yesterday. She couldn’t think of any reason why she would be in the hospital.

“You’re in the hospital. Don’t you remember the fall?” He couldn’t understand how she could forget where she was.

“Fall? Of course not!” confused by what he was saying. What was going on, why could she not remember?

“You went to yell at Craig.”

“What are you talking about? Who’s Craig?” not sure whom she was talking about. She didn’t know anyone by that name.

“Craig’s your ex-boyfriend…”

“Boyfriend, I’ve never had any boyfriend but you,” she was getting frustrated at him for even saying that. How could he kid about being with another guy when he was the only guys she had ever loved?

“Don’t you remember moving to Toronto?” this was starting to worry him. What was he to do?

“No, I've only lived in Sechelt. When did that happen?” Why can I not remember anything that he is saying, she thought. Moreover, why would she have gone out with another man; she was totally confused.

“Almost two years ago, but then last summer you moved back to the coast and in with me. We just bought a house in Victoria.”

“So how did I end up with another boyfriend?”

“There’s so much that you just don’t know. And I promise to fill you as best as I can, it’s just such a long story.”

“So tell me more about my accident,” needing to get as much information out of him as possible.

“You fell backwards down the stairs after experiencing pain in your stomach. They were able to stable you and the baby, but…”

“Baby, you mean you and me, are having another child,” she said with great excitement, excited that they had gotten another chance at parenthood.

“No not us, you and Craig.”

The smile was soon wiped off her face, “What, I thought you said he was my ex.”

“He wasn’t at that time, but you didn’t find out about the pregnancy until we were back together.”

In denial, “This can’t be. I still don’t understand how I could be with anyone but you. You’re the only one that I’ve ever pictured spending the rest of my life with.”

“There are things that have happened that changed that for a while.”

“So about this baby I’m having, what did the doctor’s say? Is the baby alright?” she asked, wondering if it was going to end like her other pregnancy.

“They delivered her last night, and they have something to help her breath, but the doctor says she won’t be on that too much longer.”

The death of Satine was all coming back to her, and she began to worry, “Are they sure because I once heard that my child would be alright, and then she ended up dying.” Tears formed in her eyes at the thought.

Putting his hand over hers, trying not to cry with her “Hun she’s much stronger than Satine was. You were farther along with this one.”

“I want to see her, I want to see her now,” she cried, sitting up, and taking her covers off so that she could get out of the bed.

He didn’t think that was such a great idea at the moment. He stopped her from moving any farther, “Why don’t I go get the doctor to look at you first, and then I’ll take you to her,” hoping to find out why she had no memory of her past two years.

Shaking her head, “Okay.”

Chris walked out of the room to find a doctor, leaving someone that couldn’t remember parts of her life. When things seemed like they couldn’t get any worse.

******

Emma stood there, watching Craig sit beside his daughter, who had yet to be named. He hadn’t slept much of the night, and to be honest neither had she. She had been trying to figure a way to make it up to him. However, there wasn’t really anything that she could do to make it up to him. He either had to decide to let her in or let her go. She just hoped that it would be to let her in.

Craig glanced over at the window to see Emma standing there; peeking in. He could see the dark circles under her eyes. He couldn’t believe that she had stayed all night. Maybe he had been too hard on her last night. The news couldn’t have been that easy on her either.

He arose from his seat, and went outside to see her. His daughter seemed to be doing fine so he thought it wouldn’t do any harm to leave her for a few minutes. He walked out of the room to where Emma was standing. Smiling slightly, “Hey.”

“Hey…how’s she doing?” looking at him with sympathy, hoping for his sake that she was good.

“Good, they say she should be off the respirator in the next few days.”

“That’s good to hear,” she grinned as Craig led her, with his hand on the small of her back, to some chairs across the hall.

Feeling guilty by his behavior, “I’m sorry about the way I acted last night. I had no right to take my fears out on you.”

Tilting her head slightly, “It’s okay; I did deserve it after what I did.”

Putting his hand on her knee, “No it’s not okay.”

“Craig, come on you had every right to be mad.”

“Yeah but I wasn’t mad because of what you did, I was mad because of what was happening with Kelsie and my daughter. I just wanted to let out my frustration, and then you came and it just seemed so easy to be mad,” a tear fell from his eye.

Brushing his tear away with her thumb as she held his cheek, smiling, “I understand.”

Craig rested his head on her shoulder, as he continued to cry. Emma felt so awful; she put her arms around him. Her touch felt so good to him right now, the warmth of her skin. This was exactly what he needed. “I’ve missed you…I needed you so much.”

He seemed to look so innocent like when she first met him at his mom’s wedding. “I know, but I’m here right now, if you just let me be.”

Glazing into her eyes, searching, he wasn’t sure what he was looking for. He had to move on from his past with Kelsie even if he still felt something; he thought this was the best way to do it, “I love you.” It wasn’t as he hadn’t been feeling like he had been falling in love with her, it just got lost at the sight of the one he could never forget.

By the look in her eyes, she knew that he was telling the truth. “I love you too!”

Craig brushed back the hair from her eyes so he could look deeply into her big brown eyes. Holding onto her cheek, he slowly moved his head in so close that he could feel the warmth of her breath. He glazed down at her plump glossy lips that were calling out to be kissed. He gave in, gently biting her bottom lip, causing butterflies in her stomach. Emma ran her hand through Craig’s hair as they continued to kiss. They had forgotten about the surroundings around them, it was as if they were the only ones around. It was helping Craig forget about his problems, if only for a moment.

******

Spinner decided that it was time to get over these feelings and apologize to Kelsie. She had been a good friend of his, and he had never let them get in his way before, why now. All he had to do is get out of bed, and get dressed. He slowly moved his feet off the bed to the ground. “I just hope that it doesn’t turn deadly.”

Spinner hadn’t heard that she had to have a C-Section or that she had went into a coma. No one had bothered to tell him. Boy would he feel bad once he found out.

******

Chris came out to the waiting room with depressed look on his face. He was trying to figure out how he was going to tell them all of Kelsie’s condition.

Karen didn’t like the look she saw presented on Chris’s face, she knew it couldn’t be good. However, she was more thinking that her daughter was dead, nothing would prepare her for what he was about to tell them all.

“What is it, what happened to her,” Ashley asked with nervousness in her voice, hoping it was nothing bad.

“Kelsie’s woke-up, but…” he was cut off.

Karen cut him off, didn’t hear him say but. With excitement, “That’s wonderful news, so what’s with the depressing look.”

Taking a deep breath, “Kelsie doesn’t remember anything about her life these past two years, not even her daughter.”

“What?” Paige said astonished.

“The doctor says that it’s just temporary. That with time she will remember everything, but until then we need to make it not hard on her, and not to force memories on her.”

“How is she doing otherwise?”  Jimmy asked.

“Good, she still going to have a hard time moving for a couple of days due to the hemorrhaging, but otherwise she’s healthy.”

“I should get back to her; she wants to go see her daughter. I just wanted to let you know what’s going on. It’s alright to leave if you have to, she’s not going anywhere,” he smiled moving towards her room.